| Just when you think things can go so well and you're so focused on what you want and so darn close in reaching your goal that you've been working on for so long for the last couple of years, something must try and stop you from it and distract you.
It's quite painful.
So I'm almost done with school, 9 more weeks left HOORAY!!. Or so I thought. I better hold back on that HOORAY and not let it out just yet. *sigh* Just lately I've been feeling lonely and sad.
-what am I going to do after school? where am I going to work? I want to go to LA or NY but stupid visas. Why can't Canadians be able to freely work in the states and vice versa (i'm feeling all the pain for my US classmates as well who wants to work here in Canada).
-Final Projects for school. Not working out so well as I'd hoped.
-I hate boys and I hate myself for getting so attached so early on.
With those mentioned. I've been trying to find a reason why this is going on and how can I fix this. I finally realized something. Since I started school. I slowly turned away from my prayer time. It was no longer my priority up to the point that it is non existent. I noticed that when I go to church I don't even listen but instead I would think of what I have to do later on after. Sometimes I even just skip church altogether because I was just that busy. Altogether, it just seems like all of this just led to how I feel right now.
I believe this is the way the Lord is trying to leave a message on my spiritual facebook wall saying..."IMU Cookie. Why don't you talk to me anymore? We should hang out sometime soon. Gimme a call. Here's my number 1-800-PRAY2ME" LOL. Hilarious. Well here's my comment back to that. "Hey, How's it goin? I realized I do miss you. I want to hang out soon. Sorry for being mia for a long while. How bout let's hang out everyday, anytime, anywhere? Did you hear the voicemail I sent you this morning?"
I'm not much of a blogger but I can see how it does lighten up your mood.
Anyway, I recommend reading this novel by Mitch Albom "The Five People You Meet in Heaven" Great book.
That's all Folks. Later Readers till next weblog
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| Have you ever had one of those days where you know you were suppose be there at the right time and place? Well today is that day for me. It's the last day of Term 3 at VFS which means that I'm at my half way mark in fulfilling my goal.
I see myself as a starter but never finish what I started. I have lots of ideas but all of them seems to just stay in the paper. StephenCovey, author of 7 Habits of Highly Effective People, said that if you put your goals and dreams down on paper then you have atleast a 90% chance of achieving that goal. So that's what I did. I wrote them down. However, I missed the part when he said that I should revist them constantly and actually make them happen. Up until a couple of years ago was the only time I was able to apply that to my way of life. Boy was he right! That one simple concept doesn't only talk about achieving your goal but if applied properly also changes your way of life. It changes your view on how to solve problems, become more disciplined, and your determination to seek more challenges.
Applying this concept helped me achieve things I never thought I could do. Never in my life was I placed in honours section but if I continue to apply this concept until I graduate, I just might end up graduating with honours. I was never good in english, in fact, it is my worst subject in highschool but I ended up getting one of the highest marks this term.All these successes just reassures me that this is where I'm suppose to be. If it is God's plan for you, it will never be too complicated. All things will just fall into place. I feel that if it isn't according to His plan, you are left with so many questions and always doubting your choices. I still fall into that trap sometimes. And the fact that you know He's always there to lead you back to the right path when you fall astray, is an amazing feeling to have.
I am now an inactive YFC/SFC member but I can never forget how much I've grown without them. During my service, I said that I could never imagine myself as an inactive member. As you grow up, however, your priorities change. Some people say that sometimes God's plan for you is something that you may not want. I disagree on that statement. God's plan for you is always something that you want. If it isn't then why would He plan it for you. We only think we don't want it at that point in time but He knows us better than we know ourselves. We only don't want it at that point because we still haven't experienced it yet. Or even if we have, we didn't experience it the way He wanted us to. Therefore, whatever we really want, is something that He has planned for us. We just have to let him lead the way.
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| OH WHAT-A-WEEK WHAT-A-WEEK!!
I started reading my old blogs and found out that I change my mind very often. At one point I said I was gonna continue training for the RCMP (yea that never happened). One thing's for sure though, 2008 is my year of success! I've been doing very well in school. I never got an 89% average ever and I got it on my first term!! YAY!!
I LOVE SCHOOL! Not a lot of people can say the same but if you really like what you're learning then you'll love it. I always thought I was set on going into events but somehow the Music Business and Entertainment Law suddenly just got interesting since I'm getting such a good grade in it. I'm even thinking of going to law school afterwards. HMM?!?!
So today is home recovery time! and set up my new bed! BUNK BED DOWN! 
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| Since I am now a starving student....plus after spending money last Wednesday night for Kendra's bday....I must spend the weekend working and staying home...sucks to my asmar!
My Bestfriends for tonight!
- Spaghetti and Meatballs
- The Family Channel
- My Homework (writing up Recording Deal Memo)
Not much to say! GO CANUCKS GO!!
EXIT STAGE RIGHT!
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| I was reading the 24 hours one day and I came across the article regarding a survey reporting that people are more happier then before. I guess I'm not the only one sharing in the joy. God is truly on my side. Keeping me focused and keeping me in tune. I'm so blessed to be sorrounded by amazing or in my friend Matt's words "Immaculate" friends. I just can't wait for school and strat living my dream!! that's it for now!! THE WORLD ROCKS!! |
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